Today is our last day in Colorado. It is the third time I have had to say goodbye to a city what seems all too soon after arriving. After three recent (and countless past) shots at this, I've found that it is the last day in a place that always seems the hardest.
It is a day that holds the responsibilities of preparing for the journey home (or in our case, moving to the next city). It is a day full of preparations like packing, checking in for a flight, checking out of the hotel, rounding up last minute souvenirs mailing postcards, etc. It's a 'back to reality day' before you actually arrive back home. It also, and more importantly for me, bears the burden of all the expectations left unfulfilled for that particular journey.
On the last day I often find myself anxious, excited, melancholy, and occasionally frantic to fit in just one more, ten more, things. Every place, person, meal, or item that I didn't get around to enjoying for the rest of the trip now sits on the 'hoped-to-do' list. Instead of being able to chose one or two things to enjoy on this day that should be able to be just like the others, I ponder and contemplate and mourn the missed things. Sometimes I try to cram 20 things in to that day, other times I give up and waste it, not managing to chose a single thing to do. Planning in advance helps, but you can't plan every detail of a trip or you leave no room for spontaneity and discovering new things.
I've gotten better about time management the more we travel. We often start a visit to Phoenix with a calendar and a list of possibilities. Emails go out, tentative events come in, we piece it all together like a complicated game of Tetris and by the time we leave we usually have something resembling a manageable schedule. After our first few stressful but still satisfying 'wing it' trips, we started planning ahead a bit instead. As a result, we've gotten quite good at visiting Phoenix. Applying this method to places that are unknown doesn't work out quite as well, but it usually helps me hit the hilights.
In New York, the last day list was so long I couldn't figure out where to start. One solution we've used in the past, and decided was the best approach for NYC, was resolving that 'we'll just have to come back again'. Places that are so large, or important, and relatively easy to get back to often fall on this list. Peru, however, is a 'less likely to return' scenario as it is cost and time restrictive being so far from our current home. For this leg of the journey we were able to prioritize a little better, compromise between our travel companions in a more useful way, and accept that we may not have seen it all but still saw plenty of amazing things. Do we want to visit again? - absolutely. Will we actually make it back? - not sure.
Colorado offers a third perspective on saying goodbye to a place. Two years ago we visited for the first time to attend our first ever Great American Beer Festival. At that point we were still entertaining the idea of an eventual move back to the US and it was a toss up between Boulder, CO and Kirkland, WA. We enjoyed the city, the beer climate, and had good friends there. We enjoyed our visit so much we planned to return every two years to repeat the experience. Here we are two years later, doing as we planned, but this time we really felt like we got our fill of the place. We went back and visited the places we enjoyed last time, picked up a few more places that we missed out on, returned to the GABF, and shared plenty of good times and good meals with our friends. I'm satisfied with our experience of Colorado and don't think we need to go back. That's not to say that we won't be back at some point, but it's good to feel finished and satisfied with a place. I've had to learn to let some old things drop of the travel list to allow space for new places to fit in.
In today's last day, our last day in Colorado, I've got a list of 'wanted to-dos'. It's too big for the day, I know it. It's OK if I dont' do it all, I know that too. Today might be my last day in Colorado... not just for now, but forever. I'm going to grab it, not waste it - seize the day and see what it brings. Tomorrow is another day, and another city, another chance to get the last day right. I'm getting better at this, the more we travel. I wonder what the last day of the entire journey will bring?
